Little did he know that in less than a decade, he would return to his motherland this time of his own free will. “I remember how anxious I was during the three days my job was advertised and how relieved I felt when there were no takers. I had worked harder than I ever had in my life, and yet, absurdly, I was ready to throw all that away.”
It wasn’t family responsibilities or businesses interests in India that drew Shankar back home after so many years abroad. Quite simply, his little girl had grown up. “It just struck me one day when she refused to change out of her jeans for an Indian party we were going to. I also noticed that she never spoke to me in Tamil even though she understood it perfectly. She was 11 years old then and I didn’t want her to grow up without any sense of her roots. I thought it was worth moving back, just to show her the kind of life and upbringing I’d experienced.”
Fast forward to 2012. Rajeswari, 33, moved back to Hyderabad after a six-year stint in the United States because her husband had insisted that it was the right thing to do.
Uncomfortable with their daughter growing up in the United States, the couple had made arrangements for the 7 year-old to live with grandparents who doted on her. “We sent her to India first because we were both working and didn’t want her to be unduly influenced by the American culture,” she said. But when her daughter constantly cried for her and felt severely homesick, her parents urged them to take her back or join her in India. “They felt that she needed us at this age and it wasn’t right for us to send her away. And we missed her far too much. It was a very difficult time for us.” Both Rajeswari and her husband were just months away from getting their green card at the time. It was something they had worked very hard for. “We had planned to buy a house, save some money for our kids’ college education and our retirement. However, every plan collapsed and it all happened so fast. Within a month, we had wrapped up our lives and returned back to India. Though it was a spontaneous decision without much planning/thinking involved, we couldn’t be happier now and we’re very glad that we made this choice.”
It didn’t help that all their friends felt that the couple was being hasty and making a wrong move. “Only very few people understood us. After all, we had waited for the green card for years and were in the final stages of receiving it … I’ll admit it was a very tough decision, but the bottom line was that we wanted to be with our daughter and we wanted to raise her with good Indian values, so moving to India was the only option we had. My husband and I have no regrets at all about our decision.” Rajeswari admits that there are still no guarantees that her kids will grow up with Indian values, (especially since India has changed so much and is catching up fast with western trends and lifestyles), but they still feel there is a better chance now that they’ve done their part.
Ironically, nowhere is the Indian double standard more evident than among the small section of seemingly modern, highly educated and sophisticated Indians living outside India. For deep down inside, many genuinely grapple with the fear of change while thrust in the midst of it, of moving away from conventional notions of the man and woman’s role in marriage and society and even worse, being unable to relate to their own children who are exposed to values that are so different from their own. But if you really think about it, returning to India with the family or sending daughters back to “learn the culture” would seem quite superfluous today, especially when there are Indians in every American state and when a great deal of that culture has been transported piece-meal to the United States. Yet the difficulty of bringing up girls here has cost many families their American dream.
This existential-type dilemma isn’t a problem in the case of families with sons. The question that arises then is: why is imbibing the Indian culture more important for girls than it is for the boys?
Perhaps the reason lies in the fact that America is thought to foster a sense of individuality, of fierce independence and lateral thinking, which while great for our boys, can severely hamper a woman’s marriage prospects. Of course, most Indian women (groomed from the cradle to make the best wives) are still expected to strive to attain the virtues of domesticity, obedience and docility, to the point of being self-effacing. If the girl must “fit in” with her husband’s family after marriage, she must learn to be flexible, to adjust without argument—lessons of life that some Indian American parents feel just can’t be learnt in America’s hedonistic culture of unabashed gender equality, money, sex, drugs and self-gratification.
“In the United States, there is no difference between a daughter and a son. At a certain age, all the kids must fly the coop and face life on their own. But that’s not the case in India, where most girls go from their parental homes to their marital homes and are still expected to abide by a strict code of conduct. You can take people out of India, but you can’t take India out of the people!” says Vijay Dheep, psychologist and counselor.
And perhaps that’s why many of these parents decide to send only their daughters and not their sons back home.
Shalu, 38, is a computer engineer working in California. Both her daughters, aged eight and ten, live with their maternal grandparents and study in Bangalore. Her 12-year old son Santosh, however, lives with her in the United States. While initially, her daughters protested vehemently and were very bitter when asked to move to India, they “soon got used to it,” she affirms. She sees them every year and is quite content with the arrangement. But what goes on in the psyche of the young girl who is told that she cannot remain with her parents in the country that they live in because it goes against their strict moral code, but that her brother can do so simply because he is male? Self-esteem issues, certainly. But even bigger than this is the constant feeling of being repressed and sidelined, of not being considered trustworthy enough and the niggling thought that somehow, the brother is the favored one.
Feelings of resentment over the injustice can fester over years, alienating these women from their peers, parents, even extended family. The Indian culture is of course a wonderful, age-old code of living. But shouldn’t our young women be credited with the wisdom to embrace these values of their own accord, no matter where they live? And shouldn’t this moral code apply to all of our children? In an ideal situation, irrespective of their geographical status, our kids would learn by the examples we set.
Indian Americans who feel compelled to send their daughters back to India truly believe that they only have the bigger picture in mind. However, the numerous flaws in the arrangement can hardly be overlooked. Since the move is across continents, for many, only yearly visits are possible. Being brought up by grandparents, (no matter how well-meaning and caring they are), can often lead to issues with discipline and communication. Based on where one’s guardians live in India (small towns can often lack good teachers and essential infrastructure), education too, may suffer. And worse, nothing can bring back the precious formative years that are completely lost to the parents.
Once the girl becomes a woman and it is time for her to marry, it is safe to assume that her own family responsibilities are bound to keep her away from her parental home. When such visits are seldom enough, shouldn’t there be warm and wonderful memories for her to fall back on?
Names have been changed at the request of those interviewed.
Kamala Thiagarajan has written over five hundred articles for leading magazines and newspaper in over ten countries.